I Need to Start Somewhere

Well, Hello! Welcome to my journey. I hope you join me as I explore exercises, recipes, challenges and triumphs to reach a healthier and happier ME!

My name is Rachel Marie. This blog will be dedicated to my journey to lose about 250 pounds. I have been heavy all my life and my weight has fluctuated for as long as I can remember. This blog is my last attempt to develop a support system and really focus on losing weight in a healthy and healing/restorative way. Let me tell you what has inspired this…

I went to my doctor last Friday. She told me that I am 447.6 pounds. I am 26 years old. And while my blood work shows healthy levels of cholesterol, A1C1, and blood pressure, 448 pounds is a death sentence if I do not act now to reach a healthier weight. 

My doctor refuses to give me any type of prescription help to kickstart my weight loss. She thinks that diet and exercise should do the trick, and while I wish I had more support from her end, I understand why she doesn’t want me depending on pills, when I need to be developing better habits. 

She has however suggested that I consider bariatric surgery– which I am not open to. Surgery makes me nervous, and I don’t want to lose this weight super fast and have skin problems that I can not afford to correct now. 

I think I should mention that I’ve gained an additional 14 pounds since my previous visit 2 months ago. So I understand why she thinks Gastric bypass would be something to bring up.

So here I am. Stubborn, determined, reaching out, being vulnerable, exposing my struggles and hopefully (fingers crossed) my future successes. 

I plan on posting photos of where I am starting, as well as video of my experiences and status. I hope this inspires me to stay focused and driven toward my goals, as well as possibly motivating someone else out there struggling with their weight. 
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Easter Weekend Shenanigans

So this week & weekend has been hectic, eye opening, and fulfilling to say the least. And I ate terribly. Everything bad that I could have possibly eaten I ate indeed. It started with the potluck at work for lunch on Friday. Then fast hibachi before volunteering at the soup kitchen on Friday evening. I ate the entire tray and thoroughly enjoyed it. Then Saturday I did nothing at all really but I went to breakfast alone at Mcdonalds and ate like 2000 calories in just one breakfast sitting: a steak mcmuffin, 2 sausage mcmuffins, and 2 hash browns with a sweet tea… then for lunch that day once my beloved finally awoke from her slumber we went and got chickfila with fries and ice cream. AND later gas station hot dogs for dinner…. which brings me to today wherein I had a big Burger King breakfast with 2 crossaints, French toast sticks and a large iced coffee. We went to church with my my partners mom and then went to an Easter cook out at her birth mom’s (because she’s adopted and has 3 parents) where I ate a plate of food, and packed 2 plates to go. 

In all I am very disappointed with my diet this weekend. I ate horribly and I know. In addition I had very little movement. I stayed sitting at practically all of my activities. 

But it was a holiday and I wanted to indulge, so I did. 

So now this week we’re suppose to go back to a meatfree diet with low carbs and low sugar…  I’ve been cheating on this diet, by sneaking meat and meat filled meals at work with coworker’s, but I think I want to try and really commit to it this week. 

It’s getting HOT here in Georgia. And as I saw this weekend, I can not do my hair and get dressed up and step outside without breaking into a heavy sweat at the weight I am. I know this will get worse as the height increases over the next months. So I should take advantage and melt some of this weight off. 

I hate the feeling of my clothes sticking to me. I hate sweating profusely. I hate my hair sticking to my neck and face. It’s not cute, and definitely doesn’t make me feel good about my self. 

Dr.Now… Really? 

I emailed Dr.Now from My 600lbs Life, the show… with a very detailed plea for help and reccomendations…
And this this is what I got: 

“Buy my book”…So encouraging…. 🙄🤷🏽‍♀️ Knowing me I would just buy the book and eat chips while reading it. 

So I opted out of that. 

Buffet progress 

So I slept rough last night. My hands are going painfully numb when I try to sleep at night. My doctor thinks it is carpal tunnel, but even with a wrist brace and NSAIDS they pain to point of disturbing my sleep. 

However, I slept pretty well last night. I’m visiting my girlfriend’s parents in Augusta, and her Dad has gone out of my way to make me comfortable. As intimidating as he is to me, I really like him. I’m just wary of having another one on one convo with him about anything. 

Her mom on the other hand, I LOVE. She has a beautiful kind spirit and I just love being around her and hearing her speak. So the three of us (minus dad) had lunch at the Chinese buffet. I did not really want to go because it’s a buffet, and I know my weaknesses with buffets, but I made a wrong move and ended up having to go. 

I am incredibly proud of my self restraint. Usually I have like 5 plates plus dessert. Today I had 2 plates of mostly protein, and no dessert. I did not eat myself to discomfort either. This is a huge landmark for me because it shows that I am more aware of what I’m eating and how much. 

Mind you, I did have thoughts like “not getting my monies worth”, “gonna regret not getting some of that”, “why didn’t I bring baggies”. But I reasoned that being out with my second, spiritual mom helped me keep a reign on things. 

This is progress. 

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